God is… I am not!

Since mid-September, I’ve been going through a study of the book of Romans with a group of gals on Wednesday mornings.  If you have ever studied Romans before, you are aware that it is one deep and in-depth study!!

In the last couple of weeks, we have concluded Chapter 8 and have begun Chapter 9.  So far, I have found that these chapters bring about more confusion, and possible misunderstanding, than possibly the whole book of Romans combined.  And maybe even the whole bible!  I may be wrong, we’re just beginning Chapter 9 after all, but I just may be right. 🙂

So what’s bringing on the confusion and possible misunderstanding?  I believe it comes down to three words: chosen, the elect, predestined.  These are three very strong, and many times, confusing  words.

These words can cause one to question God’s fairness, his love for all mankind, even his goodness.  What also comes into question is how does free-will play in all of this?

I realize that there are many who have attempted–drawing their own theories and conclusions–believing that they hold the answers to all this confusion.  These people have written articles and books providing so-called answers to such things.  But, does man really have the capacity to completely and utterly understand the ways of God?  I don’t think so.

This is why I’ve titled this post: God is… I am not! God’s attributes far exceed man’s.  He is omniscient (all-knowing), omnipotent (all-powerful),  omnipresent (ever present), immutable (unchangeable), sovereign (ruler over all), holy, righteous, love, merciful, trinity! Whew! Just to name a few.  But, there are many, many more!  Therefore, how can we as humans, and even believers, possibly wrap our brains completely around God’s ways and how all these things work together?  The answer is that we can’t!

Therefore, we must listen to and trust in what God has revealed about himself and not question his ways or assume that we completely understand them.  He is God after all!!

The reality is that no one, and I mean no one, is deserving of God’s grace, yet he has paved the way for many to be saved.  He did this because he first loved us!  Not the other way around.  So, is it fair that some will not be saved?  Absolutely!  Because no one, absolutely no one deserves to be saved, yet we are.  How free-will works in all of this, I don’t think anyone will ever completely understand, but one thing I do know for sure: God is … I am not! 

Thank you God that I do not, nor anyone else, need to know all the answers!  Thank you that I can rest in your truth in who you are and what you’ve done for me.  I can completely trust in you and your word. Amen. ❤

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.  Isaiah 55:8

Your way, O God, is holy; What god is great like our God?   Psalm 77:13

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.   John 3:16

We love Him because He first loved us.  1 John 4:19

No one is good—except God alone.    Mark 10:18

 

 

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God is… I am not!

Since mid-September, I’ve been going through a study of the book of Romans with a group of gals on Wednesday mornings.  If you have ever studied Romans before, you are aware that it is one deep and in-depth study!!

In the last couple of weeks, we have concluded Chapter 8 and have begun Chapter 9.  So far, I have found that these chapters bring about more confusion, and possible misunderstanding, than possibly the whole book of Romans combined.  And maybe even the whole bible!  I may be wrong, we’re just beginning Chapter 9 after all, but I just may be right. 🙂

So what’s bringing on the confusion and possible misunderstanding?  I believe it comes down to three words: chosen, the elect, predestined.  These are three very strong, and many times, confusing  words.

These words can cause one to question God’s fairness, his love for all mankind, even his goodness.  What also comes into question is how does free-will play in all of this?

I realize that there are many who have attempted–drawing their own theories and conclusions–believing that they hold the answers to all this confusion.  These people have written articles and books providing so-called answers to such things.  But, does man really have the capacity to completely and utterly understand the ways of God?  I don’t think so.

This is why I’ve titled this post: God is… I am not! God’s attributes far exceed man’s.  He is omniscient (all-knowing), omnipotent (all-powerful),  omnipresent (ever present), immutable (unchangeable), sovereign (ruler over all), holy, righteous, love, merciful, trinity! Whew! Just to name a few.  But, there are many, many more!  Therefore, how can we as humans, and even believers, possibly wrap our brains completely around God’s ways and how all these things work together?  The answer is that we can’t!

Therefore, we must listen to and trust in what God has revealed about himself and not question his ways or assume that we completely understand them.  He is God after all!!

The reality is that no one, and I mean no one, is deserving of God’s grace, yet he has paved the way for many to be saved.  He did this because he first loved us!  Not the other way around.  So, is it fair that some will not be saved?  Absolutely!  Because no one, absolutely no one deserves to be saved, yet we are.  How free-will works in all of this, I don’t think anyone will ever completely understand, but one thing I do know for sure: God is … I am not! 

Thank you God that I do not, nor anyone else, need to know all the answers!  Thank you that I can rest in your truth in who you are and what you’ve done for me.  I can completely trust in you and your word. Amen. ❤

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord.  Isaiah 55:8

Your way, O God, is holy; What god is great like our God?   Psalm 77:13

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.   John 3:16

We love Him because He first loved us.  1 John 4:19

No one is good—except God alone.    Mark 10:18

 

 

The Heart of Worship

Earlier this week, we had a Worship Night at our church.  I had never been to a Worship Night at our church before and really didn’t know what to expect.  In full transparency, the reason why I was attending in the first place was due to the fact that I am one of the Youth Leaders for the Jr. High gals at our church, and our Youth Pastor requested that all Youth Leaders be in attendance.  Thus, I went along with my youngest son who is one of the high school students in our youth group.  He, too, only came because I was going.

In spite of my reason for attending, and my son’s as well, our great and loving Lord completely poured out blessing upon blessing on one of the most AWESOME worship experiences of my Christian walk, and my son’s, too!!  God is so good! ❤

I believe the reason why this experience was so meaningful to me, and my son as well, was that it wasn’t just about singing songs of praise to our Lord.  Instead, it’s focus was more about the posture in which we worship, and the meaning behind that posture.

For example, when we think of praise and worship, we often think of singing, but did you know that God’s Word also encourages us to clap our hands in praise?  Even nature itself.

Clap your hands, all you nations;
    shout to God with cries of joy.

For the Lord Most High is awesome,
    the great King over all the earth.  Psalm 47:1-2

Let the rivers clap their hands,
    let the mountains sing together for joy;
let them sing before the Lord,
    for he comes to judge the earth.  Psalm 98:8-9

1You will go out in joy
    and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
    will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
    will clap their hands.  Isaiah 55:12

When we clap our hands in praise and worship at church, our posture for this is not to be in keeping to the rhythm of the beat of a song, like we’re at a concert.  Nor is our clapping to be used to approve how well the worship team performed.

No, in our praise and worship, our clapping is to reveal the joy of the Lord inside of us, and the approval of what God is doing in our lives, others lives, and in all the earth.  When we take this posture, clapping takes on a whole new meaning of worship.  It takes on a much deeper level; a spiritual one.  One that comes from the heart and is based upon truth.  This is the kind of worship that our Father seeks and approves of.

23 But the hour is coming, and is now here, when true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and truth; and indeed the Father seeks such people to worship him. 24 God is Spirit, and those who worship him must worship in Spirit and truth.”  John 4:23-24

On our church Worship Night, we also displayed the posture of raising our hands, as well as kneeling and bowing our heads to the ground.  These postures demonstrate true humility towards God, His holiness, and His word.  In Nehemiah, we read of such a response when Ezra the priest opens the Book of the Law of Moses…in the presence of the men, women and others who could understand.

Ezra opened the book. All the people could see him because he was standing above them; and as he opened it, the people all stood up.Ezra praised the Lord, the great God; and all the people lifted their hands and responded, “Amen! Amen!” Then they bowed down and worshiped the Lord with their faces to the ground.  Nehemiah 8:5-6

Even when we are singing in our worship services at church, we can display these postures of humility of raising our hands or kneeling and bowing our heads to the ground.  It doesn’t matter what other people might think.  As our youth pastor so eloquently puts it, worship is only meant to be an audience of one.  You and God alone. Meaning, God is the only audience that matters. 🙂

Another picture that was demonstrated in regards to raising our hands was very precious to me.  It was the picture of a young child reaching up to hold her father’s hand.  She sees her father as her “Daddy” in whom she trusts to guide and protect her.  In this same light, we too, can reach up our hands in worship in childlike faith to our “Daddy” in heaven.

No matter how we worship, whether it’s clapping or raising our hands, kneeling and bowing our heads, the most important thing is that we worship from the heart; that we worship in Spirit and truth; that we humble ourselves and simply worship!!

Thank you dear precious Father and Lord above for the honor to worship you!  You, your word and your name are to be glorified, honored and praised throughout all eternity! Amen ❤

First Take the Plank out of Your Own Eye

Recently, I took a short trip to my local Sam’s Club.  As I completed my shopping and was making my way towards the store exit, I couldn’t help but overhear a conversation between what appeared to be a man and his wife.

The wife was a larger size woman who was sitting in one of those motorized grocery carts, making her way towards the exit, while her husband walked along side her.  I, too, was walking in their same direction just slightly ahead of them, with a few grocery items in my arms.  Of course, I came into the store looking to purchase just one item, but you know how that goes. 🙂

To my surprise, this woman began talking in complete utter disgust about some other woman she and her husband had apparently seen in the store.  Her speech was not discreet in any way.  In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if there were others who heard her as well.

What struck me the most about what she had to say about this other woman was the subject of her disgust.  She was completely disgusted by the size of this other woman, even comparing this woman’s stomach to the size of her own.  Placing herself in a better light than this other woman.  In a nutshell, she was ripping the size of this woman, whom apparently was larger than she was, to shreds.  And her husband was in agreement right along with her.  He seemed to be almost as disgusted as she was.

While uncomfortably overhearing this conversation, this thought immediately came to mind.  Isn’t it just like us humans to point out areas in others, whether it’s a struggle we presume they are having or a defect we believe they may have, in an attempt to down play that very same area in our own lives?!  We highlight their area in an  attempt to lift us up and down play our own.  This is what I believe this woman was doing.  And, she’s definitely not alone.  I believe we all struggle with this from time to time.

In the Bible, in the book of Matthew, Jesus speaks to this kind of behavior:

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.  Matthew 7: 1-5

Instead of looking at others and coming to judgement, Jesus is telling us to look at our own selves first.  When we have dealt with our own areas, then we will be in a position to see more clearly how we can help, not judge, others with there’s.

Thank you Lord for using life examples to both remind me and help me to live out your word.  It is my prayer that through your power I will put your word into practice more and more each day.  In Jesus precious name, Amen. ❤

 

 

Believe and Receive

A gift doesn’t truly become yours until you receive it. ❤

Christmas is a time of year for both giving and receiving.  For those of us who celebrate this special holiday, the tradition is to purchase that special something for that special someone, then carefully wrap it and place it under the Christmas tree.  From there, you wait for that special day for them to take and receive it.  And, it is your hope that they will receive it with great joy. 🙂

But what if after you placed your precious gift under the Christmas tree, that person refused to believe that it was theirs?  What if they just let it sit there and never received it?  How would that make you feel?  Would it make any sense to you?

Sadly, this is what happens day after day, year after year, for so many people.  God our Father gave each of us a gift, the ultimate gift, for all mankind.  He gave the gift of Salvation through his Son, Jesus Christ.  In fact, that’s truly what Christmas is all about.  God’s special gift wrapped in cloth, born in a manger.  He gave this gift freely to all.  He simply asks us to believe and then, receive.

Unfortunately, day after day and year after year, this special gift just sits waiting for anyone who is willing to believe and then, receive.

What about today?  What about this year?  Will you choose to believe?  Will you choose to receive?

I sincerely hope so!

Luke 2:10-12

10 But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid. I bring you good news that will cause great joy for all the people. 11 Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is the Messiah, the Lord. 12 This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in cloths and lying in a manger.”

John 1:10-13

10 He [Jesus] was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him. 11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him. 12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.

John 3:16

16 For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Romans 6:23

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Ephesians 2:8

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—

James 1:17

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

Thank you God the Father for your free gift of Salvation through your Son, Jesus Christ!  I am so thankful that I have both believed and received this most sacred of gifts!  It is my prayer that anyone who reads this blog who has not believed and has not received, would open their hearts and do so today.  It is in Jesus’ precious name I pray, Amen. ❤

 

 

 

Board Games

 

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I LOVE playing games.  Especially, Board Games.  How about you?

I’m one of the youth small group leaders at our church on Wednesday nights.  I have the privilege of leading a small group of junior high girls.  Last night, we had what we called, “Small Group Night” for the youth at our church.  My group teamed up with another girls junior high group, and we had a dinner and game night together.  Chick-Fil-A and the above pictured games filled our special night.  In fact, I have all three of these games in my own possession and truly enjoy playing them all! They are EXCELLENT games to play with a group and are SO MUCH FUN! 🙂

The reason why I enjoy these games so much is that they not only bring people together, but they also provide awesome opportunities to engage, interact and get to know each other’s personalities, quirks, likes and dislikes, etc…on a much deeper level in a non-threatening way.  And don’t forget the laughter, they bring a WHOLE LOT of laughter! Let’s face it, they’re just plain FUN!

It’s important to take “time-out” from the norm and do something light and fun together.  It’s especially important that whatever you do, you find a way to interact and engage with one another.  Too often, we get stuck behind all our various gadgets, and we forget to engage and interact with others face to face.  Board games, and all games in general, are an EXCELLENT way to break that cycle.

As the holidays approach, I look forward to the tradition of playing a game or two, or three, or four, or five with family and friends. 🙂

Thank you Lord for good times and laughter.  For the gathering of family & friends.
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Marriage and Divorce

This past weekend my family and I went to witness the marriage of my handsome nephew and his beautiful fiance’.  The wedding venue was held in the center of  green vineyards and rolling hills in beautiful Temecula, CA.  It was absolutely breath-taking and gorgeous. ❤

As I was filled with joy for my nephew and his new bride, I was also filled with sadness as I looked around in the realization of how many divorces have taken place within my family, including my very own years ago.  How can such a beautiful, wonderful beginning turn into such an ugly, sour end for so many of us?

I was thinking about this this morning, and there are, of course, several answers one could come up with.  But of all the various answers one could possibly think of, for me, there’s only one that stands above the rest.  When God is not constantly, consistently and continually the center of both partners in a marriage, the marriage becomes vulnerable to any and all attacks.  In a nutshell, the marriage becomes weak and open to the possibility of a future divorce.

Let’s face it, marriage is hard work!  And left to ourselves, most of us don’t have what it takes to endure a lifetime of marriage on our own.  That’s why God must be in the center.  Without his love, wisdom, strength and endurance, most of us are doomed!

It is rare that anyone goes into a marriage thinking,  “Someday we’ll be getting a divorce.”  No, most newlyweds cannot even imagine seeing themselves with anyone else!  This is who they chose, and this is who they plan to spend the rest of their lives with.  But sadly, in so many cases, what they thought would never happen to them, happens.  I know, because it happened to me and let me tell you, it was one of the most painful experiences in my life!  Divorce hurts; don’t let anyone try to fool you into thinking otherwise, because it does.  And, it hurts a lot more than just two people.

As I looked around at my family at my nephew’s wedding last weekend, I was reminded of all the hurt and pain that had taken place due to the divorces in my families lives over the years .  How divorce had spread its ugly head like a wild fire burning everyone within it’s path.  In-laws become out-laws.  Children, used as targets, are bounced from one family to another.  Yes, divorce is ugly.  It breaks a family down to its absolute core.

I think of the picture I posted here of the beautiful vineyards of Temecula, CA.  Can you imagine a wild fire being set within its midst?  What damage would take place!  And, the affects would go way beyond the vineyard itself.

Here is what the God of the bible has to say about divorce in Malachi 2:15 – 16:

 15 You were united to your wife by the Lord. In God’s wise plan, when you married, the two of you became one person in his sight. And what does he want? Godly children from your union. Therefore, guard your passions! Keep faith with the wife of your youth.

16 For the Lord, the God of Israel, says he hates divorce and cruel men. Therefore, control your passions—let there be no divorcing of your wives.

I know without a doubt that without the Lord in my and my husband’s lives, our marriage of 23 years would’ve ended years ago.  In fact, by now it would’ve ended a thousand times over! Ha!  It is only to the credit of our God who continually keeps us faithful to one another, forgiving one another, and loving one another over and over again, even when it’s the last thing we want to do.  Marriage, it’s not easy, but it’s so worth it. 🙂

It is my prayer that more and more couples, both young and old, will look to God constantly, consistently and continually for guidance in their marriages.  Placing him in the center of it all.

Thank you Lord for marriage.  Thank you for being in the center of mine.  Without you, we would’ve given up.  There would be no hope.  It is my prayer that my nephew and his new bride will place you in the center of their marriage.  It is my prayer that whoever reads this blog will put you in the center of their lives, married or not.  Thank you Lord for your love, wisdom, strength and endurance.  You are my rock.  Amen. ❤

Who You Say I Am

A popular song titled Who You Say I am, which is sung by Hillsong,  has become one of my favorite songs.  Whenever I sing it at church or on the radio, it stirs my heart to a state of worship that is beyond words.  What a glorious thing it is to know without a doubt that I am who you say I am!

I am inspired to write this post to share this beautiful and powerful song with you. Praying that it will lead you to the depth of worship that it leads me every time I sing it.

Here’s a YouTube link to the song AND the lyrics to follow along.  Enjoy! 🙂

YouTube Video Link:

Hillsong Worship – Who You Say I Am 

Songwriters: Ben Fielding, Reuben Morgan
Who You Say I Am lyrics © CAPITOL CHRISTIAN MUSIC GROUP
[Verse 1]
Who am I that the highest King
Would welcome me
I was lost but He brought me in
Oh His love for me
Oh His love for me
[Chorus 1]
Who the Son sets free
Oh is free indeed
I’m a child of God
Yes I am 

[Verse 2]
Free at last, He has ransomed me
His grace runs deep
While I was a slave to sin
Jesus died for me
Yes He died for me

[Chorus 2]
Who the Son sets free
Oh is free indeed
I’m a child of God
Yes I am
In my Father’s house
There’s a place for me
I’m a child of God
Yes I am

[Bridge]
I am chosen, not forsaken
I am who You say I am
You are for me, not against me
I am who You say I am
I am chosen, not forsaken
I am who You say I am
You are for me, not against me
I am who You say I am
I am who You say I am

[Chorus 3]
Who the Son sets free
Oh is free indeed
I’m a child of God
Yes I am
In my Father’s house
There’s a place for me
I’m a child of God
Yes I am

[Outro]
In my Father’s house
There’s a place for me
I’m a child of God
Yes I am

Father God, I praise you because I am your child.  There’s a place for me in Your house.  I am chosen, not forsaken.  I am who You say I am!  All of this because of the finished work of Christ.  The shedding of His blood for my sins.  Jesus has set me free!  And, I am forever thankful. ❤  Thank you for the inspiration of this beautiful and powerful song.  A song that brings me to a heart of worship for all you’ve done for me.  Amen.

 

Neighbor

29 Jesus replied, “The most important commandment is this: ‘Listen, O Israel! The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. 30 And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind, and all your strength.’[g] 31 The second is equally important: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’[h] No other commandment is greater than these.”

Mark 12: 29-31

I have lived in several neighborhoods throughout my life, and I must admit that I have had some really great neighbors throughout the years.  But, if I had to choose a favorite, it would be my neighbors in my current neighborhood. 🙂

One particular neighbor, in the 5+ years me and my family have lived here, I have witnessed live out this commandment to “love your neighbor as yourself” to it’s fullest.  Each house on our street has been touched by this woman in one way or another.  And what has moved me the most is to witness the pure joy that has been so evident inside of her when she’s given of herself in this way.  Whether it be an encouraging word and believe me, there have been many.  A surprise dessert, appetizer or gift come your way just because.  The pure joy inside her has always been so evident.  Once she even admitted to me, “I don’t know why; I can’t explain it, but I just love you.”  This comes from someone who had a husband, 5 kids (4 of them boys), as well as a mother-in-law, living under her one roof.

Of course, I know why.  As a dear sister-in-Christ, she has the love of God in her heart. And, this love compels her to love others.  It’s also no accident that I have been one of the others to be on the receiving end.  God knew I desperately needed a Valentina in my life.  Both to experience her loving kindness and to witness it. ❤

With sadness, I had to say goodbye to this dear sweet neighbor, and her family, last week.  Circumstances led them out of our neighborhood and into another.  😦

Although I am very sad to see them go, I do know one thing for certain, this new neighborhood has now been truly blessed with a great new neighbor! 😉

Lord, you are so good.  You move people in and out of our lives for a purpose.  There’s a reason for everything you do under the sun.  You knew I needed a Valentina; I needed a cheerleader and friend.  And, I thank you so very much for her.  Bless her and her family as they begin this new adventure in their new neighborhood.  And may her excellent example of loving your neighbor as yourself stay with me always.  In Jesus name, Amen.

 

First Love

Do you remember when you first fell in love?  Possibly, you even married him or her. ❤

Do you remember when you first fell in love with Jesus?

In the book of Revelation Chapter 2, we read about the church in Ephesus.  There was much to praise about this church, but God says that there was one thing missing.  They had lost their first love.

“Write a letter to the leader[a] of the church at Ephesus and tell him this:

“I write to inform you of a message from him who walks among the churches* and holds their leaders in his right hand.

“He says to you: I know how many good things you are doing. I have watched your hard work and your patience; I know you don’t tolerate sin among your members, and you have carefully examined the claims of those who say they are apostles but aren’t. You have found out how they lie. You have patiently suffered for me without quitting.

“Yet there is one thing wrong; you don’t love me as at first! Think about those times of your first love (how different now!) and turn back to me again and work as you did before; or else I will come and remove your candlestick from its place among the churches.

This church had done much in the name of Christ.  But somehow, possibly through the process of time, it had lost it’s first love for God.  The joy that it once had; the love that it first experienced, had somehow gone sour.  And God insisted, for their sake, that they reclaim it once again.

I share this with you, because I believe this also happened to me.  To be honest, I believe it happens to a whole lot of Christians.  That first joy we experience at salvation when we realize all that God has done for us–the ultimate price Christ has paid on our behalf; the love and grace that has been lavished upon us; how far, deep and wide God’s love is for us sinners; how much He has forgiven–these things cause us to fall head over heals in love with HIM and plant a desire in our hearts to want to know Him more and more. ❤

Unfortunately, if we’re not careful, the cares of the world and all it encompasses can get in the way and steal that joy–that first love–from us.  Even while we’re busy serving Him.  It doesn’t happen overnight, and we more than likely don’t even realize it while it’s happening, but it is happening.

In my last blog post titled The Heart and Power of the Gospel, I spoke about a book I read titled Gay Girl, Good God.  It was in reading this book and listening to the author of this book speak in another venue, that I came to realize that this is what had happened to me.  Her joy, her zeal, her love for God and desire to know Him in the most intimate way, brought me back in time to my own salvation.  It stirred in me that first love that I once had for Him and so dearly missed.

It also happened that I had been studying parts of the book of Revelation in my Sunday class, and when I read about the church in Ephesus, I was convicted that God was speaking to me as well.

Thanks be to God for His great mercy and grace that He doesn’t hold a torch over our heads when we loose our way, but gives us an opportunity to repent and turn back to Him. 🙂  That first love that was once lost has now been restored.  And it’s up to me now to keep it that way. ❤

Thank you Lord for gently bringing me back to my first love.  For showing me through your word, and  a fellow sister-in-Christ, that I had fallen away from it.  I now know all too well how easily this can happen again and request that you hold me accountable.  For to love you like that is for my good and for the benefit of others. In Jesus name I pray, Amen. ❤